The heartbreak of a lifetime

How to start the blog post you wish you never had to write. During my pregnancy I never could have prepared myself for the loss of our beautiful daughter Anna Sophia Rose on the 16th of June.

How it all started...

On the 10th of September 2022 I became pregnant of the girl that would connect me so deep to my own truth during the 9 months to come. While making love to my husband, I knew immediately I was pregnant. It was as if I could see her come down to us as the most beautiful star under the bright light of that full moon.

Her pregnancy was the most amazing and loving time of my life. I felt so much love, warmth and connection. Not only with and for her, for all of us; my husband and the other 3 children of our blended family. Even for myself, my business and the clients that were in my coaching business during these months.

Her energy opened a love and energy in my heart, I never experienced before. I never could have imagined that her birth would also be the start of her only week with us on this earth. She was a breach baby and was born in 2 hours & 2 min. Magical 22, the number often associated with Mary Magdalene.

How a heartbreak always opens even more love

I can feel that this is how it was meant for us...and my heart was truly broken. Her delivery was immensely loving and healing for us and for all the women in that hospital room. Anna Sophia Rose was present as the baby she was and as an energy so much bigger. Letting us know she would always be there with us. Just not how we imagined it would be.

42 Weeks + 3 days we got to be together, before she was cremated on the 23rd of June. From the moment of her conception till this current moment, there has been so much love. A deeper love that learned me, that even during our deepest fears and grief, there will always be love.

With this blog I hope to let you know and experience just that. No matter where you are in your life, even on the moments not knowing how to go on, there is and always will be love.

You will heal

Grief is love trying to find it's way. I read this quote somewhere and this one resonated so much. It helped me to actively find ways, moments and things to pour my love into. Love that prepared itself these 9 months and now had nowhere to go. Love heals us, over and over again.

Anna Sophia Rose opened love on such a deep level for us. A love beyond this world and with this blog I want to show you that it can always co-exist with your darkest hours, days and weeks. You will heal. Even while feeling most alone and experiencing a pain other people can't even imagine, there will be moments of laughter, love and enjoying life. You will heal.

In your biggest heartbreak, you will find your deepest love and trust. In life and even more in yourself and each other.

Anna Sophia Rose, stillborn and still born. With this blog I want her to be remembered and people to call her by her name. This blog is just as much for me, as it is for you. I want what happened to us to be for a greater good. Because that is what love is. Love opens us for something bigger and it's up to us to live this in every breath we take.

To be continued...

XO, Cindy